My Drugstore Holy Grailzzz

Hi, I really miss just chatting on here. Am I pathetic? Maybe I need some friends haha.
But, I like you guys. I feel like when Im shopping I go home and think, oh my lanta I got to go blog about all the cool things I found. Like its ridiculous. Haha, its like you guys are my friends and I just have to tell you everything I bought.. This sounds sad, but, its the trufffth. When I'm doing tutorials I just feel like its straight to the point and dry. Like, blend, put on lipstick BYE. So lets actually get back to normal and be BFFz again? Ok, good. Thanks.

So I'm gonna talk about something close to my heart and apparently your guys too.
Drugstore Products.
Where do you draw the line? What should you splurge on?
Honestly, heres my say, I don't draw the line anywhere. I don't think you exactly need to splurge on anything. Thats my opinion others may be different but, I like to try everything. Some drugstore products yes, for lack of a better word, the pits. But honestly, so are some high end Dior things. Im not against anything. But, don't get me wrong, I do love high end things, as you may see in my tutorials. On the other hand tho, I do love me a good NYC find. You do you, if something works for you and its a dollar. GIRRRL YAAAASSS. Im jealous and let me in on it. But like I said, I'm here to try everything from drugstore to high end for you to see what you need to go out and buy right now or pass on. So lets get to it.

NYC Liquid Liner-- Ummmmmmmmmmmmmm. I'm obsessed. If you follow a lot of bloggers, or you tubers you may already have heard the rave about this. But, its literally one of the blackest eyeliners I've ever used. The applicator is also amazing. Its super easy to work with and lasts forever. Wait for it.... Its also only $2.99. You should go buy it if you're obsessed with a nice wing like me.

Keepin on the NYC train, their Sunny Bronzer... I've talked about this a hundred and one times. But, one more won't hurt. This is a perfect bronzer. I literally reach for it more than I do my high end ones. I love it. There is no shimmer and it literally mimics a real tan. It gives you some color without looking Jersey Shore-esq if you're picking up what I'm putting down. This is also $2.99 ughhhhh. Its almost a complete dupe for Benefits Hoola Bronzer if you're into that but for a fraction (not even) of the cost.

Rimmels Lash Accelerator Mascara! This gem is like $7.99 I think... This is an amazing mascara. It lengthens like no other. Im obsessed with this one mascara from Mac, I think its called Extended Play and this is exactly like it, if not better. Its a miracle worker for my bottom lashes. When I wear this its like BAM there they are. I LOVE IT. I would pick this over a lot of high end mascara. Oh, and it lasts a super long time too. I wore it to bed (I know bad) on accident and I woke up and my lashes still were like Hayyyyyyy.

Revlons lipsticks, lipglosses, lipstains. Anything Revlon lip wise. Im about.  They are soooo pigmented and last a good amount of time for being $4. Their lipsticks after Mac and YSL are my favorite lipsticks of all time. They have the most PERFECT nudes and fall colors. No other drugstore lipstick touches Revlons. My favorite is Pink Pout and Nude Attitude. Im not kidding I reach for these two more than any of my other lipsticks 75% of the time. And thats a big deal considering the amount of lip sticks I do have. I have loved these for yeaaaaaaars. My first ever lipstick I actually wore on a daily basis was Nude Attitude and I have repurchased it at least 10 times.

Loreal Viable Lift Blur Foundation & Loreal True Match
This stuff is amazing. I got it because honestly, I was like I love my Loreal True Match, its my favorite foundation, so why not try it? And I'm so glad I did. It literally blurs my pores, blurs every imperfection and it doesn't feel heavy on the skin. Which is a plus! I loveeeee it. Its awesome for everyday! Loreal True Match is more for a night out. Its full coverage and you can definitely tell you have foundation on. But, it makes you look flawless. Its great for people with problem skin that wants a foundation to really cover everything. I use this on clients alllll zeeeee time. I love it.

NYX anything, practically is bomb.
I love their blushes, their concealers, their lip glosses.
Their lip butter glosses are everything. And they smell like vanilla. What else do you need in life? Their staying power isn't that great but if you're ok with reapplying its beautiful when its on and moisturizes your lips like no ones business. My favorite is creme brûlée! You can get them at Ulta for like $5.

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So theres that....
You have all my secrets to cheap deals.
You're welcome ;)

Talk to you guys soon!

DIY VAMPIRE TUTORIAL!

HIIIIIIIIIIII everyone! 

Guess what time of year it is??!?!? Halloweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen!

If you have been following my blog for a while you would already know that a) I love fall and b) I love the Vampire Diaries. I have a huge addiction and I love Stefan so if you're team Damon-- byeeeeeeee! Hahah jk but really Stefan for the win. With Halloween right around the corner and the Vampire Diaries season premiere starting last week, I want to be a Vampire I decided... Or Daria. Or Poison Ivy. Im not sure yet. So I thought while I'm struggling to decide I would show all of you different options! For real tho, on a serious note, I dream I'm a vampire sometimes. Not kidding. I think I was one in a past life and doing this makeup just came so natural to me. I swear I'm not nuts. Its just super easy hahah. 

With this look since the eyes are so dark, lets start on the them! Well do the face lata...

Prime your eyes! Then, I took a NYX Jumbo Liner in Dark Purple and covered the lid to start with a nice base. Then took my Lorac Pro Palette 2 and took the color Cool Gray in her crease and buffed it right out. Making sure that the Purple base and the Gray are all blended. Afterwards I took Black and patted that right onto the lid, then blended it all out again. 

I didn't take pics of the face because I thought it was self explanatory but, I took my lightest foundation you know me I own a million cause I am a vamp in the winter, and applied it all over my face and neck. Then took a white face cream from the halloween store and blended that in. I used a translucent powder and patted it all over the skin for a matte look. Then took Cool Gray (from the Lorac Pro2) and used that to contour. Find out how to do that here!

For the veins under the eyes, I took a black liquid liner and started making little baby lines with other lines sprouting from the base. You can use a red cream from the Halloween store or I used a matte red lip stain and with a brush applied it right on top of the liner. To finish that up I blended the colors, Plum, Navy, and Black (again from my Pro2) and made the lines not to stark. Lined my top and bottom waterline with a Black liner and used mascara! Or, apply some fake lashes like we did! Then take the Black and Navy and with a pencil brush blend it right under the waterline to make the look really smoky! 

The lips are my favvvorrrittteee part! I took Cyber from Mac and put it on the outer edges, then took Russian Red on the inside to make it look like bloody. Then I used Night Moth liner (from Mac) and blended both the colors together. Took Cyber again and patted it right in the middle again to blend. Lastly, took Black and put it right on the corners again, to make you look realllllll dead.

Then, take some blood and put it everywhere. Literally, wherever you want. We put it on the sides of the mouths and right on the inside of the lip where we put the Russian Red to make it look like she just got done feeding! And then slapped it everywhere else!

PLS CAN WE PLS PLS PLS TALK ABOUT HOW SICK THIS IS.

THIS WAS MY FIRST TIME DOING IT AND I AM IN LOVE.

DEAD.

BECAUSE I WANT TO DO THIS EVERYDAY. JK.

BUT I DO. IF PEOPLE WOULDNT STARE AT ME & THINK I WAS CRAZY.

-First get a cotton ball. Take a piece of it and start rolling it into a circle. 

-Then put eyelash glue on your neck with two dots.

-Put the two circles of cotton onto the dots. 

-Wait for it to dry.

-Then take some liquid latex (you can get this at the Halloween store for like $3) and apply it all over the cotton. Wait for it to dry again. After it drys start molding it. Take some tweezers and pronounce the middle of the circle and push the sides down so they are no harsh lines from the skin to the circle of cotton.

-Take your foundation and blend it alllll over. And take Cool Grey, Plum and Navy again and just start putting it all around to make it look nasty. Then take your bronzer with a blush brush and just blend that all out.

-Use liquid liner and put it right inside the circle to make it look dark and endless. (Apparently Cass liked this part hahahahah)

-Using that red cream or stain like I used start patting that inside the dark and just all around.

-MY FAVORITE PART TAKE THE FAKE BLOOD AND PLAY!

and vavooom you look like Stefan just bit you. Or Damon. Or whatever you're into. 

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So what did you all think?!?! Are you gonna be a vamp?!?!

What other tutorials would you guys like to see? Let me know in the comments :)

I hope this helps someone......

I'm not sure exactly what I am going to call this post but, I thought I would get out of my beauty, fashion, posts for a day and talk about something really personal for me which is Anxiety. Normally I would never post anything like this, but, for a long time I had no idea what I was going through, thought I was so weird, didn't know what was going on, so, finally I got to thinking... Many of you might be going through the same thing that I am right now, and maybe, I can help you guys who may have anxiety or my friends and family understand it a little bit more...

Ive had social anxiety since I graduated high school I would say. So about 5 years. But just in the past few years has it got intense. I would hope that this post helps people who struggle with it understand that you're not alone, need advice or someone else to understand! I really think that makes all the difference!

HOW ANXIETY IS FOR ME:

Anxiety is different for every single person. Not one persons anxiety is the same as someone else's thats why its so hard to understand. It took me a long time to understand that anxiety is 100% normal. Loads of people have it. You just have to figure out what works to get through it for you. I still am trying to figure this out. I get anxiety a lot with a load of people or people I don't know. I don't like to be in malls, schools, anything like that, even family parties. Its ridiculous like the closest people to me I don't feel comfortable around anymore. I get anxiety at work doing hair and even at the doctors office. I get anxiety when fighting with people, or even telling people how I feel if I am upset. I really only feel comfortable to talk to one person and it ruined our relationship because I would never say what I wanted to ever to anyone else, and just go home and complain to my boyfriend at the time and complain and cry and cry. But nothing he could do could help. Its so crazy. How hard is it to say that something someones doing is bothering you? It scares me lol. I get very overwhelmed very easily.
My mom would always say that I don't have anxiety, its just self-esteem issues. But its the total opposite. I had self esteem issues because of my anxiety. Its so confusing. I just don't like to be around people I don't know, even people I do know a lot of the time, like I said, I just don't feel comfortable. I feel like I'm being judged when no ones judging me. For a long time, I would put down every thing in my life with my friends, family, jobs, that I would want to do more than anything, its not that I didn't even want to, just because, I was scared I would get anxiety. Its just a scary thing to feel. It can't be controlled and it comes out of literally nowhere. There are total different types of anxiety to being nervous for a wedding to just being nervous for a test. Everyone has anxiety its just in different aspects in life and different people tolerate it different ways. Extremely high anxiety, in my case, can lead to panic attacks. Which is the scariest thing in the entire world for me.

WHAT IS A PANIC ATTACK/WHAT HAPPENS?:

When I get panic attacks they are two complete extremes. Either I am in bed, and I feel like someone is sitting on my chest, I can't breathe, I get crazy lightening bolt feeling chest pains, when this happens it comes out of nowhere. OR I can't breathe, I can't talk, I shake, my whole body goes numb, I don't understand people who are talking to me, cold sweats, shivers, ringing in my ears, feeling smothered, everything spins. It is literally the scariest thing in the entire world. 

What helps me with my panic attacks or anxiety in general, is just getting out of the situation and breathing. Deep breaths, and try not to think about anything. This may sound crazy. Just take the whole situation out of your head the best that you can and count. Count until it stops. You could be counting to 1,876. But I bet you it stops. Put your head between your knees and just breathe it out. 

CLOSURE:

The best thing I can do, is to just say yes. Honestly, just put my self out there. Its the absolute hardest thing for me and Im still trying to work it out. But, do things that scare you. The more you do it, the less it will scare you. I promise you! For me, I don't get much anxiety if I am driving to a place. That way if I want to leave I can leave. Its crazy, I just feel claustrophobic if I can't leave somewhere when I want to. I think everyone has their own ways of dealing with it. But like I said, this is mine. Its harder than it looks I know. But take things little by little. Im trying to this day to push through it. Why let anxiety get in the way of your life? Why let it get in the way of you being happy, meeting new people, having new relationships/jobs?!

If you're suffering from anxiety just know that you are not alone! Panic attacks, are scary, but believe me girlfriend, they won't kill you. You can work through them! Don't let anxiety put a damper on your self esteem or life. You are amazing and you can stop them! If someone you know, or are close with doesn't understand your anxiety, just honestly, kick them to the curb! Not literally but don't let it upset you. Only you understands what you are going through! Like, I said leave comments, message me on social media, email me, I AM HERE FOR YOU!

HOW I DISGUISED MY DRY, BRITTLE HAIR!

Heeeeeeeey Girlfriends! So I have been missing my long tresses a lot lately. Like a lot. Growing it out sucks. Then, I always get to thinking about how I had the worst long hair. It was deader than Abe Lincoln. You think I'm joking but I'm not... When I had long hair it was awful but I always disguised it so noone would know. I'm kinda a pro at it. I did everything to try to fix my split ends. But, at the end of the day just remember nothing can fix them. Hence, me cutting off all my hair. But you can mask them!

If you want healthier looking hair though-- 1st things 1st get a haircut. Sorry, I know you don't want to hear this but thats the only thing that will help!

ANTI-SNAP! ANTI SNAP WILL BE YOUR BEST FRIEND IN THE WORLD IF YOU LET IT! It helps smooth the cuticle to make the look of split ends look tons better and helps further more damage. It is the bees knees. I literally used to soak my ends in this every single day. 

I would ALWAYS air dry my hair. ALWAYS if I could. My hair just always looked less huge and frizzy if I just let it do its thing. I know this sucks but embrace your natural hair. I hated mine. Until I just started being lazy. HAHA. All of a sudden, the cool thing was (thank the lord) beachy natural waves. So just go with your hairs flow. Im sure its awesome. Use some sea salt spray and you're good to go!

If you do use heat- never forget a heat protectant. Just don't. Think about makin some nice old eggs. You always want to use Pam. Unless that'd just suck and ruin your eggs. Not using a heat protectant is going to do damage on your hair. I promise you.

Introduce some Awapuhi in your life. No joke. Every product in their line just literally makes anyones hair look 10 times more amazing. A great ones for my bland girls is the Shine Spray. This makes your hair look crazy beautiful and shiny. Who doesn't some shine in their hairs?!?

Use oil! Yes oil! Some Chi Silk Infusion your dry ends will suck that sucker up and look refreshed! I would put it in my hair when it was wet. Then, after styling.

As I tell you girls all the time, skip washes. Washing your hair everyday strips all of the essential oils out of your hair making it dry and brittle.

Use a leave in conditioner--- I used to use Healthy Sexy Hairs Soy Tri-Wheat Leave in Conditioner. Its on sale right now at Ulta for $10. WOOT! I put this in right out of the shower to work as a detangler. I would spray this all on my ends. Then ALWAYS take a wide tooth comb or tangle teezer and comb out my hair. Never use a brush. Start at the ends and work your way up. This helped a lot with the dry months when my hair was just awful.

Lastly, get a gloss! At my salon we have demi-permanent colors so they don't effect the cuticle (doesn't damage your hair) and it just brings back the shine and puts some depth into your hair! Book your appointments girls :)

Everything mentioned you can get at Ulta!*

I hope this helped your tangled tresses! But, make sure you get those ends cut regularly! Comment below and let me know how it works for you! Whats your favorite way of faking healthy hair?!?